1. Secret World
There's people all around us talking but they don't see
The Secret World we have, you and me
You're across the room and we catch each other's eye
That subtle smile you send gets me so high
Cause we've got a Secret World - of our own
Other dimensions exist all around
We take in a fraction of what's here now
What you and I have is in that other place
We hide away there inside that special space
Cause we've got a Secret World - of our own
It's funny and sad because this life will end
But we go in circles and we will meet again
We're laughing and smiling as we catch each other's eye
I know that you're my person in this life
Cause we've got a Secret World - of our own
There's people all around us talking but they don't see
The Secret World we have, you and me
2. Soul Slash
Believe it or not, my body’s hot
Pushing against the culture rot.
It’s spread around the planet, engraved in granite
So toxic even a demon couldn’t plan it.
It hits my soul, tears a hole
Leaves me slashed, and hiding like a mole.
I’m waiting to be saved, trying to be brave but
Some inner voice keeps telling me I’m stuck here in my grave.
Everything is wrong, the people don't belong
The poets are undone, there's nothing to become
My feelings are the same, though I know it's just a game
I can't forget the fame, that causes all the pain
Love and hate, they go together
If you're feeling one, you're going to feel the other
Soul Slash, coming on so fast
You go around in circles becoming someone new
I'd like if I could join you and become that person too
But shadows from the past will always reappear
And forces from the real world will always interfere
I pretend to be the lover who you want me to be
The one who will protect you, and show up in your dreams
But I don't need to do that, you tell me now
You want me for the person who hides behind the show
I am the hunger, I feed mindlessly
I am the clutching, I take desperately
I am the darkness, with me, you can't see
I am the struggle, that shapes destiny
I am the mountain, I stand majestically
I am the forest, I cover with green
I am the fullness, I rest contentedly
I am the river, I flow to the sea
3. Fallen Angel
There's something I'd really like to know
Why did you turn your back and go
And leave behind the afterglow?
They say that you tried to be like Him
But to me that's not a sin
It's what happens when you go within
Jump back, jump back in your mind
Jump back, to that time, and tell me what you find
Is it something I can understand?
Is it part of the master plan, I know
Forgive me for asking so
You've played a part throughout the years
Ruling on Earth, with pain and fear
And the nightmare stays so near
But just as the light must have the dark
And pleasure and pain won't come apart
You've been needed right from the start
Look back, look back and tell me all
Look back and tell me now what led up to your fall
Was it the pride of a super-man
Or was it part of the master plan, you know
I believe that it was so
They say that you never can return
But let me share wisdom I have learned
The flame inside still burns
You're getting weary of the load
Feeding on fear instead of love
But you can go back above
Inside, look into the dark
Look hard, into your heart and soon you'll see the spark
Keep going on - go on to the light
It's time to leave, leave this world of night
It's time to make things right
So go on, go on make a stand
Feel the love, reach out your hand
It's part of the master plan
There's something I'd really like to know
Why did you turn your back and go
And leave behind the afterglow?
4. Eternity
I'm thinking bout Eternity
Wondering how it's gonna be
It's where your dreams come true
The hidden side you hide from view
They say that it's a better place
With a different kind of time and space
But what is it you do all day?
Do you work or do you play?
It seems like it's a paradise
Everything is more alive
The earth is far behind
It's the last thing on your mind
I'd like to try and visit there
Close my eyes and breathe the air
I'm wondering how its gonna be
Thinking bout Eternity
I closed my eyes and focused high
Into that middle inner eye
I shifted to another zone
A place that was much more like home
Relaxation like I never felt
Drew me into the Astral Belt, where
People came forward to welcome me
People who I wanted to see
I saw the journey we're all on
The struggle, the fight, the things we do wrong
I saw how love can enter our lives
And keep us walking in the light
The view was amazing, it went on without end
The past, the future, the link between them, it's all
Present now, but we usually don't see
Except when we visit Eternity
I'm thinking bout Eternity
5. The Beat Goes On
Charleston was once the rage, uh huh
History has turned the page, uh huh
The miniskirt's the current thing, uh huh
Teenybopper is our newborn king, uh huh
And the beat goes on, the beat goes on
Drums keep pounding rhythm to the brain
The grocery store's the supermart, uh huh
Little girls still break their hearts, uh huh
And men still keep on marching off to war
Electrically they keep a baseball score
And the beat goes on, the beat goes on
Drums keep pounding rhythm to the brain
The eye will see you
Grandmas sit in chairs and reminisce
Boys keep chasing girls to get a kiss
The cars keep going faster all the time
Bums still cry out buddy, have you got a dime?
And the beat goes on, the beat goes on
Drums keep pounding rhythm to the brain
And the beat goes on, the beat goes on
Can I believe what is happening all around
Everything I have is falling and tumbling down
Everything good is ruled by the underground
The light is dark and honesty can't be found
6. Love's Regret
Fantasy, becoming a reality
But when the pages are turned
Are you burned, or are you free?
Ecstasy, covered with uncertainty
Do you know the rules
Or are you fooled by a summer breeze?
Hearts on fire, bleeding through the night
All the while, you struggle and you fight
Time goes by, new lovers come and catch your eye
But you never get what you want and expect
That's Love's Regret
Tranquility, remember how it used to be?
You want to go back, and
Love is the trap, so recklessly
Vulnerability, resulting from dependency
Pain is the cost, your freedom is lost
But you don't see
Eyes on fire, wanting to possess
All the while, you stumble with distress
Time goes by, new faces come and catch your eye
But the pain that you get that you just can't forget
That's Love's Regret
Dream on, dream on
Bodies on fire, bleeding through the night
Passion blends with struggle and with fight
Time goes by, new lovers come and catch your eye
But do you always give more than you get?
That's Love's Regret
When you open your heart are you caught in a net?
That's Love's Regret
Do you try to forgive but you just can't forget?
That's Love's Regret
7. Running
(Instrumental)
8. Bad Guy
When a Bad Guy becomes a Good Guy
That's when the trouble begins
He's always looking to make things better
That's when the trouble begins
When a Good Guy becomes a Bad Guy
That's when the trouble begins
He's always looking to make things harder
That's when the trouble begins
I'll take you down to subterranean streets
I'll take you down where there's fear and greed
I'll take you down so you'll see how evil is king
They'll kill you there for less than a dime
They'll steal your soul as they give you the prize
They'll make you feel like you're never gonna survive
When a Bad Guy becomes a Good Guy
That's when the struggle begins
He's always looking for the answer
That's when the struggle begins
Let me take you back to the life you can't find
Let me take you back til you're out of your mind
Let me take you back through the plastic ribbon of time
They'll love you there like a long lost son
They'll fill your heart with abundance and love
They'll make you feel like the battle has finally been won
9. Wild On The Street
It’s Wild On The Street, the dark side is erupting
It’s Wild On The Street, but there’s no one who’s to blame
It’s Wild On The Street, the darkness is corrupting
Stay focused in the light, don’t be drawn into the game
The unruly man is festering with anger
The unruly crowd is ready to explode
Consciousness is opening to the danger
That’s been hidden inside and now has overflowed
A man sees his shadow upon the pavement
He curses out, I hate you, I’ll kill you, you’re wrong
The man doesn’t know it’s just the reflection
Of the darkness inside he’s been carrying for so long
Tibet, Egypt, Libya, Syria
Irac, Iran, Afganistan, Pakistan,
Somalia, England, Darfur, Congo
Climate change, tsunamis, AIDS, Wall Street, USA
It’s Wild On The Street, the dark side is releasing
It’s Wild On The Street, and there’s no one who’s to blame
It’s Wild On The Street, the darkness is decreasing
Stay focused in the light, don’t be drawn into the game
Stay focused in the light, don’t be drawn into the pain
Stay focused in the light, stand aside and let it play
Stay focused in the light, don’t forget… your name
10. Love Me
Big boy
I'm running out of words to say,
you've heard them before
But baby I'm almost out the door
I try to reach out and talk with you but, you're not there
Baby, I'm not sure that you care
If you're gonna Love Me, then you've got to hear me
What I try to tell you, when you're coming near me
If you're gonna Love Me, then you've got to feel me
Like you really want me, like you really need me
You say it's just a matter of time, and you'll come around
Don't you see we're lost and can't be found
All I want is to talk with you and, tell you how I feel
But you don't hear, and we're not real
Love Me, Hear me, Tell me, Come near me
Love Me, Feel me, Want me, Need Me
11. True Love
(instrumental)
12. Shadows
All the streets are dark, and then the dawn comes out to play
Shadows disappear, and yet somehow, they seem to stay
They linger in my mind, reflecting times, from distant days
They bring up from inside, the things I hide - my darker ways
Shadows, upon the wall
Shadows, you're behind it all
I look into your eyes, I see us tied, from times long gone
What you wanted then, you want again, even though its wrong
You're clinging tight to me, dependently, but I can't go on
Now you're all alone, on your own, desperate for anyone
Shadows, upon the wall
Shadows, I hear you call
The ancient pylons welcome me
The Nile flows on so beautifully
At evening dusk we light the pyre
The temple vibrates with the fire
I float up high so easily
Releasing from life's misery
Osirus stands, protecting me
I enter the hall of reverie
All the land is dark, and it's another Earth-bound life
Shadows of the past are coming back and bringing strife
They tell me of my needs, what were the seeds, I left behind
They guide me on my path, from the past, into the light
Shadows, upon the wall
Shadows, you're behind it all
Shadows, upon the wall
Shadows, I hear you call
A Secret World © 2017 John Ruskan
Twenty-Two Records
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songs © 2017 John Ruskan
Lost Count Music